A BIG WARM HI to everybody :) . It has been long time ago since last time I came here to this place [My place], I passed by many many things during the past days. Bad, good and great ones. And I am here now since I think I have something in my mind since weeks ago waiting to be documented, for my future. This is a great stage in my life and I want to keep these words here for the future.

WOW… before I start I want to say that I think this POST will be long one since I have many to write about. I thought about every single word I will write here since about month ago, and I wished if there is somebody to share these things with, but since I found nobody that may listen I decided to work silently until I have the chance to document it, and now I think it is. And you [whoever you are] you may do no not need to read it, you [might be] wasting your time reading these stupid words I am writing, But for me this is very important, and [as always] I feel happy doing so :) .

As you may know, I am now a master degree computer science student in JUST, and a full time employee at an IT company here in Amman. I was really excited to start doing both things. but once JUST opened it’s door, things start to change in my eyes, many things came with each other, and in one day I found my self over loaded with toO many things, and duties that all are waiting me to get them done. My instructors start from day one asking for home works, projects, and a lot a lot a lot of reading. At the same time at work I have my own tasks due dates to submit things.

The last week was a rushed one for me, and at that time I was thinking to leave my job and focus on my study, I read what Nayrat wrote about her situation and how happy she was doing both things, but for me it was not easy at all. I asked people around me and each one of them gave me different opinion, and I did that thing we call it [Istekhara== asking god to help us choosing what is better] my parents were both ok with what I want and asked me to do what suites me, and finally I decided to leave my job. One of our working day I came early to my desk [as always ;) ] and waited until the manager came, and once he sat in his office and start connecting his laptop, I followed him and asked him to close the door, then we start talking and I told him all what I am passing by and how I found that hard on me. And I told him what my instructors keeps advising us about leaving the job and keep concentrating on our study. He smiled and said:

- As your manager I would say the following:[ Yes, Ibrahim we enjoy your existance between us, and we wish you all the best in your study. And at the same time you see how many guys came here everyday to submit there CVs to work, and we can bring a new employee to get our job done].

- I said: Yes, that’s right. [at least four CV's submitted everyday].

- And then he continue saying: [Now as your big brother, I would give you this advice].

- I said: Yes, please.

- He said: [You are in a great position doing great at your job here, and what you are working on to continue your study is a great thing too. As you see here we have no problem if you studied and worked at the same time, and that is an advantage for you. If I were you I will keep doing both things, improving my knowledge, degree, and at the same time building my experience and my own self as independent person. And soon Inshallah your salary will improved. Yes you will be doing two things at the same time, but that will made you outstrip your colleagues, doing so will not be an easy thing, it will be so hard and will takes a lot of work from you, and you will need to be so organized, but at the end it will be you who win, If you need time to think about this, I will wait for a reply. You do no not need to be in a hurry, take your time].

- After I heard his words I was so excited, happy, and gave him my reply at the same time. Yes I will keep them both.

By these words, I judge on my self not to have rest, not to sleep, not to watch TV, and not to waste my time.

My Work

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Yes, I do :) . I do like the place where I am in, it is a modern building, occupied with whatever nice things you may wish to find in a building, elevators, garden, and Mosala [small mosque]. filled with people from all over the world, American, Japanese, Chinese, European , Khalaeejeen :) . There you hear all the world’s languages :) .

In my company, I am surrounded by about 45 nice persons, I think none of them is older than 30 years old, no body use titles when talking to another, even me when I talk to the manager I say Mr…. and he keep asking me to say his name directly without the Mr. thing.

The work I am doing behind my cute desk and PC, is one of the most things ever in this world I like to do, talking to computers in there languages :) .

My Book

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I miss you so much, Wallah I do my book, it has been long time since I hold you. There were things stand between me and you, and keeps me busy a way from you, but now I am back. I will never ever stop doing you, you will be my friend along this long trip. I really enjoy reading computer science books the most, since this science where I found my self, and where I am ready to spend all my life in. And here one more important thing to say about my study, I always wished to continue my study out there in the US, and to bring a big Shehadeh as will as a better science, and the opportunity came, and it was the time to fill up three applications for three universities, where I dreamed to be, but I did not. That was the most stupid move I ever did. And another thing regarding KAUST, I am not going to documented here since I am afraid of showing you how DONKEY [Yes Donkey, excuse me Ibrahim] I was after more than six months of waiting. Spoiling everything. Anyway… I can not let time come back again as will as I will not wait for another cycle for the master, no I will move forward with what I am in now, and then when it’s time Inshallah I will do what is right.

fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice shame on me.

Or even better as George W. Bush said it:
“There’s an old saying in Tennessee — I know it’s in Texas, probably in Tennessee — that says, fool me once, shame on — shame on you. Fool me — you can’t get fooled again.”

Wallah he is so stupid hehehehe


Now what??

By now, my schedule is over full, I am ON six days a week starting my day at 7:00 am and coming back home around 6:30 pm. I sleep one hour after that, so that I can keep studying and doing my universities tasks at night, I sleep around 3:00 am every day. I almost do not see my family [specially my parents, and that's hard on me]. [But if you would like to talk to me then the best time will be lately at the study section, however I will not give you more than 10 minutes lol]. I do not watch TV at all. But I still meet my friends every Thursday as we used to, but with the difference that I came back to study :( .

Currently, I think it is time to buy a laptop for my own, the main reason behind this decision is that since the past days, I start hating my PC even it is very fast and can get my job done, but I feel that it reminds me with things I do not want to remember. So I stopped using it. I am thinking about SoNy or DeLL. By now I saw some of them, they are fast as a rocket, nice as a sweet girl, and I would like to have one now, but they are around JD 1000. :( . I think this coming week I will bring one Inshallah. [Once I got the money, lol]

Now, I should go back to my LIFE, and see what will happen… to come back here and tell you :) .

من فضلك لا تغير المحطة … فالعرض مازال مستمراً

lol :)

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